The Propheteer

While you’re reading this now (well, not now, then, but now to you) I wrote it (am writing it…ah heck, now I see (saw?) what all the trouble is with time-travel grammar) several days ago. Thanksgiving being a time for reflection on what you’re thankful of, I thought it best to have this show up then.

I’m thankful for so many things – my amazingly supportive family – my especially amazingly supportive wife. I’m thankful to have a roof over my head – and, in particular this thanksgiving, that I own that particular roof. I occurred to me while we were looking for a home to buy that I was in fact completely content and happy with my life. I love my wife, she loves me, we have enough food to eat, our jobs are interesting and pay us enough to live without hardship, and I’m constantly striving to better myself (something worthwhile for the journey as much as the destination). I was pleased to realize that I didn’t need a house to be happy. So often people speak of “If we just…”, as in “if we just had a house” or “if only I had that car” or “if only we were married”.

Well, we are married, but that’s not the point. The point is that I don’t have any more “if only”s. I’m completely content – I’m happy with the way my life appears to be going, and I’m completely happy with the person I chose to share it with.

That’s not to say that I’m through striving. Now more than ever I’ve become ambitious. I’m reaching for high profile projects at work, I’m teaching myself to draw and practicing my writing so that I can turn that into more than a dream. (Maybe it won’t ever reach beyond “hobby”, but at least I’ll be doing something with it) I’m working hard on the house – making plans and setting things up. I’m reaching forward more than I ever have – because with the people and experiences I have behind me, I know that I can. It was once said that discontented people were the only ones who had an itch to reach higher. I’ve proven to myself that that’s not true. I’m perfectly content. I know, however, that there’s a great deal more out there, and I’m looking forward to seeing what it’s all about.